The other day I was thinking about my life and how I have been feeling sort of stuck.
This is not the typical me. I don’t do stuck. I hate feeling stagnant! As a true Scorpio, I actually thrive on change.
I felt fed up. I’m tired of being patient and waiting for the “right time”. I want what I want NOW! I was literally walking around talking to myself saying “Something’s gotta give! I’m a good, kind, caring, compassionate person; I deserve to be happy and fulfilled!”
That night I was talking with a friend of mine about it, and she asked me if maybe I was depressed. “No, it’s not that”, I said to her, “I just want The Universe to send me a really distinct sign- I don’t need any more cryptic bullshit!”
Now, if you know me, or if you’ve been following me on my blog or Facebook for any length of time, you know that I am generally an optimistic person. I can usually find something good in every situation. And I am very in tune with receiving signs from The Universe.
I love analyzing my dreams. I look up animal totems. I know a little about numerology. I have dabbled in Feng Shui. I meditate to clear my mind. I self coach to keep my limiting beliefs and fears in check. If there is some kind of woo woo magic to experiment with, I am open to it!
However, right now I’d just love to see something – some bit of clarity or direction – as if it was clearly written on a chalk board. As I was talking to my friend, I was laughing saying I felt like Dr. Evil from Austin Powers: “Throw me a frickin’ bone here!” I wish I was at the place where what’s happening right now all makes sense.
My friend suggested I write The Universe a letter with what I’m struggling with, and it’s likely a good idea.
But to be honest, I felt like giving The Universe the middle finger!
I know that won’t help. It’s not like we can make demands and get what we want (at least not in that stressed out, grasping, and angry way). We can’t intimidate The Universe into giving us what we want.
The next morning I heard the song The River by Garth Brooks. I stopped what I was doing to listen to the words. And it hit me! In life, there is always a time for an ebb and a time for a flow.
Sometimes things are moving along exactly how we want them to be, and life feels great. Sometimes things seem to happen in reverse, and that’s actually great too. It’s a time for us to rest and rejuvenate – to take a break from creating, to evaluate what’s working and what’s not.
And this is what I know for sure (in any situation):
There is always something to do, some choice to be made, and some way to grow.
“So don’t you sit upon the shoreline and say you’re satisfied. Choose to chance the rapids and dare to dance that tide.” -The River (Garth Brooks)